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Saturday, January 31st, 2004

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Subject:Journal moved...
Time:9:17 pm.
Mood: blah.
Since I feel that sleepy_gnome isn't really the best fitting name for me, I have moved my LJ to fullofstarlight.

So, if you get friended by me there do not be alarmed.

Friday, January 30th, 2004

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Subject:Shakespeare and odds and ends...
Time:10:37 pm.
Mood: blank.
Just saw "10 Things I Hate About You". Bloodly brillient, I tell you.

Have had two snow days in a row. I am feeling the luck.

And am completely in love with Leslie Howard's version of Sir Percy. Ahhhh.

Thursday, January 29th, 2004

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Subject:This sure makes me feel cool....
Time:11:40 pm.
Mood: relaxed.
Who were you in a past life? by Kat007
Favorite Color:
You were most probably:Alexander Graham Bell
If not then you were:Leonardo da Vinci
Created with quill18's MemeGen 2.0!

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Subject:"Truth is natural like a wind that blows..."
Time:2:49 pm.
Got today off of school due to the temperature. Boo Yah, Man.

Redid both Blog and LJ layout today. Once my brother comes back from the Y I will scan a background and have an even cooler layout in here. I got the tabular indent overides all set up, so when I get my background it will be all set. I want to have this once pic from the last Marmalade Boy manga in here, but I have no idea how our scanner works. Maybe my brother is right in thinking I am helpless.

I have spent alot of time recently trying to get used to my new town and trying to make friends and in the process I feel like I've been neglecting all my online commitments and friends, as well as my England friends. And I really need to stop this, because I can't feel comfortable here and I really feel comfortable with my friends online and otherwise in the world.

I've been sick lately (well, a week that feels like a year ago) and I've had some stuff going on. Second Semester started, in all its glory (or lack thereof). Gah. Someone murder all the person who came up with the concept of changing classes every half year, why don't you.

Live goes on and I heave a little sigh.

(Actually those lyrics are from the theme song of Ruruoni Kenshin. Lol. They seem to fit.)

Saturday, January 17th, 2004

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Time:2:57 pm.
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Monday, January 12th, 2004

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Time:5:52 pm.
I'm trying to remember a time when I was completely happy. There is only one memory and it is as faint and elusive as a cumulus cloud. I was little, and we stood by the lake and looked over the sliky water across to the bright lights of the fairgrounds and I was happy.

I still have the lake, but now the lights must be inside myself.

Tuesday, January 6th, 2004

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Subject:An Observation
Time:7:19 pm.
Mood: cheerful.
Oscar Wilde is the funniest writer I have ever read.


Monday, January 5th, 2004

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Subject:"It's like an unexpected song, an unexpected song that only we are hearing..."
Time:7:22 pm.
Mood: calm.
I suppose that life is just a little song. It is full of different notes and different feelings. Full of different aspects like classical to rock to pop to jazz. And sometimes we don't know what kind of music it is (like BNL) but we listen, and sometimes love it, anyway.

That is my life.

I am constantly hearing the sorrow of Beetohvan, the upbeatness of Train, the unworthiness of flimsy pop bands like Girls Aloud, and the depth of Third Eye Blind.

I have no real feelings or thoughts or ideas anymore. I am just little Maren in the corner, with her nose stuck in a book as if it had been glued.

You know what?

For once I'm fine with that. Because if I wasn't like that I'd be denying myself.

And, really dahlings, do you expect me to do that?

Somethings are not worth it, even for acceptance.

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Subject:I need something to do.....
Time:4:41 pm.
Mood: bouncy.
Three layouts in three days. I think I have layout-itis again.

On the good side, since I didn't make our currently school play I talked to the head make-up personage and she said I could definatly help with make-up for it!

So it turns out I may find something to do after all.

Sunday, January 4th, 2004

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Time:9:59 pm.
Mood: bored.
you are lightskyblue

Your dominant hues are cyan and blue. You like people and enjoy making friends. You're conservative and like to make sure things make sense before you step into them, especially in relationships. You are curious but respected for your opinions by people who you sometimes wouldn't even suspect.

Your saturation level is lower than average - You don't stress out over things and don't understand people who do. Finishing projects may sometimes be a challenge, but you schedule time as you see fit and the important things all happen in the end, even if not everyone sees your grand master plan.

Your outlook on life is bright. You see good things in situations where others may not be able to, and it frustrates you to see them get down on everything.
the spacefem.com html color quiz

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Time:1:51 am.
Another new layout in both my blog and LJ. Good stuff.

Thursday, January 1st, 2004

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Subject:Another New Layout....
Time:1:31 pm.
Mood: calm.
Personally, the pink was annoying me. I am not a pink kind of girl. So I choose black instead.

I also got all the issues with the background image sorted, so I am proud of myself.

Am doing better now. Maybe I have realized that even if I feel lonely and depressed it is not going to help anything, so I should just buck up.

And I will.

Wednesday, December 31st, 2003

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Subject:Cheated on a Good Hand
Time:5:11 pm.
Mood: uncomfortable.
I can't do this anymore. I can't just sit around, waiting for life to come. I feel as if I had been cheated, like Mlle. Guillenormand (although I don't know how to spell her name) and all life has to offer is fiction. Realilty is hounding on all sides.

However, it has been a good day. I have sat around reading Eowyn/Faramir fanfiction all day and have been enjoying myself.

Am I messed up or what?

Sunday, December 28th, 2003

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Subject:Good irony...
Time:4:48 pm.
Mood: content.
I have had plenty of irony in my life. Most of it has been bitter. I remember reading a line in Sense and Sensibility that describes it perfectly:

"[She] was born to an extordinary fate. She was to grow and find the error of her former opinions."

It goes something like that, and extrodinarily well describes my life. I always am finding the opposite true of things I once felt were coming my way. I used to think I was a cool person, (I was a vain little girl) but now I find, while I may not be that cool, I am unique. And that is better than cool, I think.

This Christmas started off awfully. The best thing about it had been the food. But now it is turning out wonderfully. By a stroke of luck (and detective work!) I found out my friend is coming today (and good thing I did, or else she would have been stranded at the airport!) and one of my oldest family friends gave me this old rare book series I have wanted for a long time. And I went to Barnes and Noble today, and got a collection of Ocsar Wilde plays, along with some manga I wanted.

So it turns out everything I really wanted this Christmas I got, not by the kindness of other people or by planning. I had to work it out myself. And that makes the satisfaction bigger than if I hadn't had to work for the happiness of it.

Saturday, December 27th, 2003

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Subject:My Christmas
Time:12:39 pm.
Mood: annoyed.
Chirstmas goals:

-get some fun presents (such as a DVD of The Princess Bride, a good books, some money to buy manga with)
-spend plenty of time at Barnes and Noble
-see Julia and have revival of happiness
-see Lord of the Rings again

Goals Achieved:

-see Lord of the Rings again

Yep. That's it. Of all I wanted to do this Christmas that was it.

What happened you ask? I will tell you what happened.

For Christmas I got: a sweatshirt (which is nice and which I like), a Judy Garland plate, The Secret Life of Bees (a book I really don't want to read), some money (which I am happy about!), and a battery recharger.

I have not been to Barnes and Noble because I am sitting here waiting for Julia to call me and tell me when she is coming today or if she is even COMING to Minnesota, like we planned.

Yep. I am in a bad mood. I know I should be thankful about Christ being born, and should be thinking of his grace and birth, but I can't. I am just so tired of feeling like I'm on a rack which is stretching my happiness thinner and thinner.

Thursday, December 25th, 2003

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Time:2:56 pm.
Mood: guilty.
It makes me feel sick. I truly do. My stomach is contracting, and I feel lik I could throw-up.

And it is all due to my irresponsibility.

Monday, December 22nd, 2003

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Subject:New layout...
Time:12:46 am.
Mood: drained.
I actually had to work a little (find the image, upload it, override everything, change things) to make it. So I am pretty fond and proud of it.

I think that I choose that picture because I have been watching Les Mis today, and all the while I kept wondering if it was going to be the only steadfast in my life. Sure, it sounds weird, but since I can remember I have known of it and loved it. I literally can't remember a time when it wasn't there or when I didn't become emersed in it. First it was the music. The haunting repeated melodies that I adored. Then it became Victo Hugo's enthralling words. They were all descriptive and so I felt like a fly caught on its spider-web. There is nothing left out. You are transported to the world of his characters.

And people wonder why I love it so much.

Tonight I went with my family to see The Last Samurai. It was very interesting. I wonder how much of it is fiction and how much is fact. That would apply to most movies I see. I want to know the REAL story, not the Hollywood version.


I have also realized that I have been tending towards angsty rants in all my online journals. I really just need to learn how to cry and how to get sympathy from other people. I never can. I always feel like I have to keep up my front. I never usually cry in front of people, and maybe there is more to it than lack of a reason.

Maybe I am just a big scaredy cat under all my verner of confidence.

Thursday, December 18th, 2003

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Subject:Quote Survey
Time:6:31 pm.
Mood: listless.
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Time:5:22 pm.
Mood: thoughtful.
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Wednesday, December 17th, 2003

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Subject:Lord of the Rings...
Time:11:06 pm.
Mood: cold.
I am watching The Two Towers. It is interesting. I do like this movie, however I am in the mood for watching a video of a 7th grade sleepover (which should have, and never did, made) and watching my old friends, and my old laughter (sans the bitterness or the crystal-ly fake giddiness), and old days when I was happy.

I am too nervous (Damn insecurity) for appreciating the beautiful Elfin voices going past my ears.

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